@PyroStock
Do you live close to me?
Are you a doctor?
Or a member of Congress?
Or a Federal Judge?
Or do you have any superpowers that could help me out?
My current situation:
+ I am still alive.
- I nearly died 3 times around 6-8 weeks ago.
The docs have been forcing me to take certain medication that makes a lot of people sick.
The docs won't even let me TRY the other medication that never makes anyone sick. For 10 YEARS.
Ok so there is a trick I could do where if I had some Motion Sickness medicine that worked in the right way then I could take that and work around the problem that way. This idea always makes pharmacists VERY ANGRY and they say "the DAMN DOCTOR SHOULD GIVE YOU A DIFFERENT MEDICINE NOT GIVE YOU DRUG B TO CANCEL OUT SIDE EFFECTS OF DRUG A"
But the docs would not let me have any motion sickness drugs for 10 FREAKING YEARS.
One day they went crazy and assigned me 3 different doctors for every appointment. Somehow I ended up with a green newbie doctor who hadn't been brainwashed into being mean and evil yet. I asked him for the motion sickness drugs and he was "well if you have motion sickness why don't you just take some prescription motion sickness drugs. On the House!" I guess his boss got mad at him or something because this doctor was taken away from me and I was never allowed to see him again.
+ The good news is I can now take my primary meds twice on the same day! waoh! (A normal person would be taking it 3 times a day).
So my typing ability has theoretically been increased probably like 3x. I was at 0. So now I am at 000! A much bigger number!
I have not actually tested to see if I can really type more in real life until today. I was planning to wait several months and let the drugs "soak in" for some months before I go and kill myself with typing. (Yes I nearly died from typing several times in 2008.)
Before I had my health stolen from me I used to make updates every week or 2 weeks or so.
That last update I issued was an "easy" (for me) update since it was all just stuff other people made for the game. new gfx, new translations, new soundfx, more new gfx, new anims and more new gfx.
For the last 3 years I have most of the time had a lot of mental energy but no abilty to write so I am a dolphin. A super genius brain with no hands so not able to build anything. So I got my nurse to set me a superfancy super special computer that is easy on my eyeballs, hands, feet, arms, shoulders, sciatic nerve, median nerve and ulnar nerve. The result is that I have been reading like a maniac.
I have been constantly watching science documentaries and reading science news and just study study study study study. Its like being 5 years old all over again!
I used to study computer science stuff but it got depressing so I stopped.
For me just being able to watch documentaries and read is a major achievment. I spent the 3 previous years unable to read jack. Unable to watch documentaries. I was just totally unable to accomplish anything. Nowadays I can at least study and be happy
Where I am trying to go with all this is that I will try to resume back on TC to at least get that last version out the door to all the fans.
I will give it a go and try. I will probably fail completely. But at least I will try, which is more than I have attempted for years.
If you don't hear anything posted in this thread over the next 2-4 weeks then it means I have failed and you can write me off as a useless piece of garbage. Handicapped ppl are handicapped.
The best I could POSSIBLY do is a little bit each day.
When I had my health, I used to work on it 24 hours a day. For months on end. Assuming I can now do something for 2 hours a day that would be 12x slower than I used to be. So something I used to do in 1 day will now take 12 days. That is the absolute most I could possibly achieve now. In real life I have been 40x to 300x slower at achieving real results of anything for the last 12 years straight.
Please remember that if I had my way, the game would be many quintillions of times better than it currently is. The current game is a trifle. A mockup. An experiment. Just something to shake the bugs out. It is really nothing compared to how it is supposed to be. If I had not had my life RUINED the game would be so ridiculously fantabulously better. I have soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many ideas how to make the game better. Its just totally crazy.
The docs told me I would die in 0-5 years. That I was waaaaay past the point of no return. That there was nothing they could do for me. That I should go out and party and have fun with my remaining time. They told me this in 2006. Everyone else with my condition did, in fact die. Every single day death comes for me and every single day I must cheat death. The things I must do every single day and every single night are completely absurdly ridiculous and extreme (which is why normal ppl just go ahead and die).
I had to stay alive so I could resume Total Chaos and because all my Total Chaos friends said they would be mad at me if I kicked the bucket on them
I was in a zone in around 2005-2006 where I could putt-putt do things to improve Total Chaos. I could use my hands 4 hours a day in a really gentle way with taking breaks ALL THE TIME. So I spent 12 hours a day inventing algorithms in my head and then 4 hours typing them in. So I had a wonderful hobby going. I was very extremely happy.
If I could get back into that zone again them I would be happy and so would all the Total Chaos fans. I will give it a go.
Now where did I put that Hippocrates spell?
