@motrucker
don't feel bad, I understand what you are feeling. I've had to sell my project A4000 motherboard, one of my A4000s , all my C64 stuff, my Atari stuff, might end up losing a bass guitar I had to pawn, countless other things my mind blanks out so I don't go crazy thinking about it.
Still with all that I might have to sell my Cybervision and let another one (or both) of the Amigas go so I don't get kicked out on the street.
I think waiting on 8 might have been a little too late for me, but there others in better situations (some even worse)
I feel your pain.