First off, it's really good to see you back Karlos. You have been missed. I won't presume to understand what you're going through at the moment. But as bloodline has said you have lots of friends here, and who knows: going in to specifics about your problems might help you to feel better (not suggesting you need to do it publicly :-) ) God knows I've done it enough times here over the past couple of years.
Take care, and please do one thing for me: try to deal with this before it becomes too hard to face. When you get to that stage, you're officially stuck in a rut.
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moto