The only advice I can offer is to concentrate your life on other things that make you happy and you have some control over and hopefully you will succeed in your career, what ever that may be, so that you will have the money to spend on this very expensive hobby OS again and you can buy yourself a SAM440, or used Pegasos2, or if you like MorphOS (like I do) you can get a used G4 MacMini and begin enjoying the next generation Amiga systems and fellowship.
Also, with more success in your life and career, you can afford to travel to attend events like AmiWest 2010 next October and have fun with other people that feel the same way, or similar to yourself.
I cannot stress enough that computers are only tools and entertainment devices and more people should take a look at the example of the webmaster here, Wayne, who has come to the realization that life is more important than computers, or computer OSes. I do understand the comradarie of the Amiga community and how you can feel disconnected to that community now, but it can change if you make other changes to your life to allow it to happen.
Good luck and hang in there.
Edit: Try AmiKit with your AmigaForever and I think you will enjoy the emulation experience more. I am typing this into IBrowse2.4 on my PC using AmigaForever & AmiKit right now.
