Almost Sold My Amiga Stuff Four times

[justthatgood]

Maybe it's the very slow pace of things that are going on in the Amiga industry? Could be the consistent pain of working VERY HARD, with really rude people, only to be broke week after week.

Be it the the agitation of an industry that is akin to a star that is about to go nova, or the desperation that only poverty brings, I've almost did it. That's right. I've had the thought of selling basically all my Amiga stuff, just so the girl and I could eat a decent meal for once  :-( .

The more I look at the, the realization of things that are, and NOT what could be are colonizing my thoughts. Just as I had to put in my mind that there were going to be no more Star Trek:The Next Generation, Futurama, or episodes of other shows I liked, there is going to be no final Amiga OS4.

I'm also starting to realize that the community that I'm trying to cling to so desperately is fading faster and faster. Yes there are a few new people coming in, but as a whole, I think the computer industry is becoming bleh. Few people actually chat on IRC. Yahoo is literally completely crowded with bots. The few ham radio/computer shows I do have the time to go to are boring anymore.

The increased cost of insurance, increased rent, the constant gouging at the gas pumps fueled by ignorant acts set in motion by an incompetant presidental administration, the fact I only get paid every two weeks to barely make enough to help my girl with the bills, does it to me.

I don't know how much longer I can hold out.
(PS, we need a spellcheck plugin or something)

[justthatgood]

@motorollin

Any type of change that I can do will take at least six years to significantly change anything. That will include trying to scrape ANY type of money to go toward some education. Trust me, my credit is so screwed up, I can't a loan to pay attention to anything.

Most of the jobs that pay worth anything around here are either closing shop and leaving, or they require degrees short of PhD's (see situation.) There are other jobs that don't require a lot of skills, but then again they do extensive credit checks because they deal with finacially sensitive business.

Things are getting worse around here because of the ever rising costs of the fuel prices. Yes I know there are people that are paying around $7US for gas around the world, but in our little neck of the woods the economy was built around $1.10 gasoline prices. When prices reach $3+ for gas and diesel, that puts a huge shock on prices for stuff. In our state sometimes it gets bad because we have some pretty weird taxes on stuff. It might not be that bad at times, but when you are already struggling, it HURTS.

What has to be done about that is something that I can't do. I know I'm not the who started the hornets nest around the world. I suffer in my own little way, like many people are suffering around the world. I'm not going to say much, but a lot of this basically rests on the shoulders of a little man that lives in a BIG white house. That's all. If I say more, I might say something that will get more people pissed off at me, or give me some strange vistors.

[justthatgood]

Err, that is the 1st Amendment right that my mom, dad and various other people in my family and others served in the military to defend and uphold. I know other people that are in the military that don't care for the president. I'm sorry, I'm not going to lie and act like every thing is so peachy because people think that anything other then blind nationalism is taboo.

So there are people that are from other countries that come to this website, so what?  That just means I can get input from another prospective. I DON'T, and I WON'T follow blindly into any nationalistic, fascist ideals, just because it's suppose to be the right thing to do :argue:. Most people don't realize that Bush and his "friends" might now have anything to do directly to affect oil prices, but you know they did contribute to some cause and effect stuff. The stuff has been spit out ad nauseam so I'm not going to even waste the keystrokes going over it. To think anything less is to live in denial.

My so called "depression" is simply a symptom of actually seeing what is going on in the world, and not being naive. Some people don't see how the deck is being stack, but they will get it when the cards get dealt.

 :-x Err, I don't have any idea how to even display my disgust in the way things are being operated, without being either unprofessional, obscene, or violent. So I guess I'm just going to wait until we get a new Next Gen Amiga gaming system that is fully fiber optic networking compatible.

 :madashell:  :lol:  :madashell:  Beelzebub will be opening his own ice cream/frozen yogurt store when that happens.

[justthatgood]

In my first post I blamed a presidential administration. That's right, that's more then one person to hold accountable. So I hit some drunk guy in a parking lot because I didn't check the brakes in my car, and couldn't stop. I didn't mean to hit him, but my foolishness and lack of forethought caused a situation that resulted in injury of some sort.

So by bringing me to court is the guy( even though he was intoxicated) blaming me. No not really, he is holding my butt accountable to the actions my carelessness caused. Politicians are not deities, so peoople need to quit treating them as such. They are not perfect, and people need to quit shouting at people that point out the obvious as "blamers, whiners, etc."

Plus, I never did say that "little man in the big white house" was GW Bush. Then I would say the {bleep}y, brash officer in chief living in the White House. Proper names, and very specific words. Top of mind thinking is very dangerous. People start to assume stuff.