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Amiga.org specific forums => Amiga.org Discussion and Site Feedback => Topic started by: kickstart on September 08, 2014, 06:56:24 PM
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Titlle says all... i dont find it and not even on thread started by me, maybe another "bug or error".
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Guessing got deleted because someone mentioned mental illness. I mean what the actual fook
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@kickstart
the thread is still there but was closed by another moderator. if you guys have any questions PM @amigakit. thanks!
-- eliyahu
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Them amigakit must give the reasons in public for close/delete or wahtever a correct thread, is not normal this attitude really.
And thread moved to the last black hole of a.org when no body read it and dont appear on the recent thread list...
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Guessing got deleted because someone mentioned mental illness. I mean what the actual fook
Talking about mental illness in general is a good thing like you said. Talking about a particular persons mental issues in the third perspective on a public forum is not acceptable. Especially when it is a friend.
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I was going to reply to that thread, but when I got around to it I saw it had been deleted. If it's Amigakit then I guess it makes sense, I think he's had something against me for years.
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I'm struggling with depression which isn't easy because I don't have any friends or family for support. I would like to get back into the Amiga community but I don't feel welcome anymore. I feel like I have failed you all.
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You do have the support of us - and you're so welcome here. Like Emory Austin said, some days there won't be a song in your heart. Sing anyway.
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I would like to get back into the Amiga community but I don't feel welcome anymore. I feel like I have failed you all.
You're one of the nicest posters this forum has ever seen and one of the most passionate Amigans out there. You haven't failed anybody.
Take care, and I hope you find yourself feeling better soon.
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I'm struggling with depression which isn't easy because I don't have any friends or family for support. I would like to get back into the Amiga community but I don't feel welcome anymore. I feel like I have failed you all.
Yaay Cammy's back :)
Just take it easy and enjoy the little things. Playing Amiga games is a good way forward :)
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@all
Dont write something wrong, censorship is flying over our heads.
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Poor Cammy, I struggle with clinical depression myself, but thats for other things than the Amiga community. I completely understand how it makes you feel though, its like you can't escape at all.
Its very important you seek support from someone you trust. Lucky for me I have someone I can depend on for that, but it must feel horrible to not have anyone.
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welcome back. I am sure there are plenty of people here who will support you. I have suffered with a depresion and bad anixity most of my life. Spent about 2 years of my life convinced that every night when i was trying to go to sleep that I was dying. anyway I am surre there are plenty of people in the same position here.
I undestand why you have been away cammy one of the first things to go when i am depressed is all my intrerests (apart form listening to music ).
Anyway take care. You cant fail other people :)
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Hey Cammy
there's always light at the end of the tunnel my friend and there's not one person on this wonderful Forum of ours that at some time or other has not suffered from Depression , and everyone loves you to bits and we are so lucky to have some one like you on our forum and you are indeed the light that shines brightly amongst our motley crew ,so take care my friend ,oh and one last thing I live and work in the uk and you are quite famous as my friends at work who have seen your pics on my smart phone always ask about you,:) and refer to you as the Amiga babe and believe you me that's one hell of a compliment my friend, take care see you soon Brian. :):):)
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Wow! I just saw this post on an Amiga FB page linking to an old interview with Cammy from 2011 and then I see this topic and Cammy posting in it!
Amazing!
http://obligement.free.fr/articles_traduction/itwjackie_en.php
Nice to see you around Cammy, personally I think you make the Amiga community better (girls have that effect) and if you are ever in Melbourne please come along to the AUG meeting, we'd luv to meet you in person. :)
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Sad to hear Cammy. You don't owe anybody anything, so you could hardly fail the Amiga community. Take care, I hope there are some people you can turn to. The beast tackles most of us at some time or another, facing it on your own is doubly hard.
I wish you all the best, as I am sure the rest here at AORG do.
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I'm struggling with depression which isn't easy because I don't have any friends or family for support. I would like to get back into the Amiga community but I don't feel welcome anymore. I feel like I have failed you all.
It sounds like a few people already replied in this thread that understand how you feel at the moment and would be there to talk if you want to.
You shouldn't feel unwelcome here, especially when people here have been missing you and wondering where you were.
You have failed nobody, you have done more for the community than many have done and you have obligation or duty to do so.
I hope we see you posting here more frequently. Take care.
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Thank you all for your support, you've made me feel like maybe I shouldn't be afraid to post here. I still feel like I've failed the Amiga community because I had so many ideas for how to help, and for a little while I was able to communicate with others who could help make these ideas happen, but as well as spending too much time helping people with their individual problems (the reason I wrote a few guides was because so many people were asking me to help them through things step-by-step) I was also receiving a lot of criticism and negativity from several people in the community which really got me down. My online life means a lot to me because it's impossible for me to make friends or communicate easily in real life. I ended up meeting a few guys in real life after chatting on the forums or IRC, but they seemed weirded out by me and avoided contact afterwards. A lot of people ended up dumping their old, broken Commodore and Amiga junk on me, and this stuff was already piling up here. I have no idea about soldering or hardware repairs and the only person I knew who could fix them (AmigaManiac) also got depression and had a breakdown. So I feel like I can't move with the burden of all of this junk and responsibility and broken promises and failed dreams weighing me down.
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Hi Cammy I think you are very brave to come forward and say how you feel and I applaud you for your inner strength, and I am sure most people will understand only too well how you feel ,but there are no failed dreams or broken promises Cammy as you have helped for so long and tirelessly to make the Amiga dream happen and that's no failed dream my friend and they say only Amiga can make it happen and maybe you now deserve to be right along that wonderful saying, take care and you have a rest because you deserve one ,very best wishes Brian.
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Dear Cammy:
You are one of the greatest amiga developers I've ever met.
I really love hearing from you.
I also think you must be a terrific gal in real life.
I always looked forward on this forum to hear from your latest projects.
Your work enriches the amiga community so much.
Please come back and develop for amiga again !!!
Love you !!!
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You definitely shouldn't be afraid to post. You belong as much to the forum and Amiga community as the next person. Those that disagree probably don't belong to the community (ipso facto).
This place was lessened by your absence and the missing positive, forward contributions you provided.
As to the hardware, a challenge for another day. One step at a time.
Hope to see you around more Cammy. Take care.
BTW: Dreams can't fail. They're dreams....
Some words of wisdom from some video game character: ""I may fight alone, but I can always call for backup. I simply can't be beat!"
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Thank you all for your support, you've made me feel like maybe I shouldn't be afraid to post here.
You are most welcome to post here, of course :)
Maybe start with an easy gaming review... say, a Street Fighter special :) All those versions on Amiga deserve a proper guide.
Then, about that Amiga gear pile... Try to make a listing. I am sure many Amigans would be interested. You can make yourself some nice cash too :)
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Dear Cammy:
You are one of the greatest amiga developers I've ever met.
I really love hearing from you.
I also think you must be a terrific gal in real life.
I always looked forward on this forum to hear from your latest projects.
Your work enriches the amiga community so much.
Please come back and develop for amiga again !!!
Love you !!!
Well said rednova because this just about sums it up and how we all feel ,but what I cant quite grasp is why this thread is hidden away ,as we all know Cammy and she is a dear friend to each and all of us ,and if a friend is in trouble we stand together as the Great Amiga Community that we are and not hide away in the shadows and if Cammy feels like a natter we are here where we should be together but not hidden away , any way just my thoughts ,and come back soon Cammy ,best wishes Brian.:):):)
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Thank you all for your support, you've made me feel like maybe I shouldn't be afraid to post here. I still feel like I've failed the Amiga community because I had so many ideas for how to help, and for a little while I was able to communicate with others who could help make these ideas happen, but as well as spending too much time helping people with their individual problems (the reason I wrote a few guides was because so many people were asking me to help them through things step-by-step) I was also receiving a lot of criticism and negativity from several people in the community which really got me down. My online life means a lot to me because it's impossible for me to make friends or communicate easily in real life. I ended up meeting a few guys in real life after chatting on the forums or IRC, but they seemed weirded out by me and avoided contact afterwards. A lot of people ended up dumping their old, broken Commodore and Amiga junk on me, and this stuff was already piling up here. I have no idea about soldering or hardware repairs and the only person I knew who could fix them (AmigaManiac) also got depression and had a breakdown. So I feel like I can't move with the burden of all of this junk and responsibility and broken promises and failed dreams weighing me down.
Certainly don't feel afraid to post here, there are certainly people here who'd much rather see you here more frequently.
I hope you could make it the AUG meeting in Melbourne some day there might be people there who can help you deal with all the surplus gear you have although try selling or giving it away online first. If you get the chance to meet new people try not to let past experience put you off. Don't worry about the people who didn't remain friends, it's their loss and not yours.
Remember you're an amazing person with varied interests and real depth, anyone lucky enough to be your friend should treasure that.
In case you haven't kept up there's a couple of app stores on the way which I seem to remember was an idea first proposed by you. Even while you've been away it would seem that your inspiration has shone brightly.
Don't ever feel you failed the Amiga community, you have done far more than many people here and you had no obligation to do so. Just try to relax and have some fun while you're here.
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@Cammy
You are welcome here. Feel free to message me on Facebook or email if you have any questions or problems. I can't promise you I'll have all the answers, but my wife and I are both techies (I'm an Amiga techie and she's a Photoshop techie).
I hope that the AmigaE that I showed you before was helpful. If you want, I'm trying to start a tutorial on C programming for RedNova on http://www.amigacoding.de (http://www.amigacoding.de) though I haven't had much time lately. You're welcome to join us there, if you like.
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Thank you all for your support, you've made me feel like maybe I shouldn't be afraid to post here. I still feel like I've failed the Amiga community because I had so many ideas for how to help, and for a little while I was able to communicate with others who could help make these ideas happen, but as well as spending too much time helping people with their individual problems (the reason I wrote a few guides was because so many people were asking me to help them through things step-by-step) I was also receiving a lot of criticism and negativity from several people in the community which really got me down. My online life means a lot to me because it's impossible for me to make friends or communicate easily in real life. I ended up meeting a few guys in real life after chatting on the forums or IRC, but they seemed weirded out by me and avoided contact afterwards. A lot of people ended up dumping their old, broken Commodore and Amiga junk on me, and this stuff was already piling up here. I have no idea about soldering or hardware repairs and the only person I knew who could fix them (AmigaManiac) also got depression and had a breakdown. So I feel like I can't move with the burden of all of this junk and responsibility and broken promises and failed dreams weighing me down.
Hi Cammy darling.
I have suffered with depression and anxiety since I was a child.
I have recently done a course of Cognitive behavioural therapy and thus far it has literally turned my life around.
I cannot recommend it enough.
Medication never really worked for me.
There are still tough days, but now I have the tools to get through them, and there are many great days too.
I am trying to improve relations with others too as I also have a hard time making new friends; anxiety does that to a person.
D'ont think so badly of yourself, I'm sure that you are a beautiful person and Please post here whenever you like.
I think that it is obvious that this thread and the other exist only because people here really like you.
Take care.
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I'm struggling with depression which isn't easy because I don't have any friends or family for support. I would like to get back into the Amiga community but I don't feel welcome anymore. I feel like I have failed you all.
Cammy, we understand the depression, its a tough thing to fight. You have not failed anyone!
Just the opposite really, the guides you have done for shapeshifter and other things have been great!
Amiga is in your blood.
Mech
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You guys are the best, thank you so much for cheering me up and for your great advice. I'm going to start making threads about my ideas and I really hope we can have some constructive conversations about them.
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Thank you all for your support, you've made me feel like maybe I shouldn't be afraid to post here. I still feel like I've failed the Amiga community because I had so many ideas for how to help, and for a little while I was able to communicate with others who could help make these ideas happen, but as well as spending too much time helping people with their individual problems (the reason I wrote a few guides was because so many people were asking me to help them through things step-by-step) I was also receiving a lot of criticism and negativity from several people in the community which really got me down. My online life means a lot to me because it's impossible for me to make friends or communicate easily in real life. I ended up meeting a few guys in real life after chatting on the forums or IRC, but they seemed weirded out by me and avoided contact afterwards. A lot of people ended up dumping their old, broken Commodore and Amiga junk on me, and this stuff was already piling up here. I have no idea about soldering or hardware repairs and the only person I knew who could fix them (AmigaManiac) also got depression and had a breakdown. So I feel like I can't move with the burden of all of this junk and responsibility and broken promises and failed dreams weighing me down.
I for one am really glad you are back Cammy, you're a great person!
It's easy to be too friendly and help too many people. That happens to me a lot, I take on machine after machine IRL (not only Amigas, but video game consoles, arcade systems, other PC's and even dead monitors) to fix and at several points I don't even have time for my own projects.
The important thing to learn that also is hard is to say "no", it's a hard word to use sometimes, especially when you know the people, but I noticed people accepted that I didn't have time at the moment and now I only take on stuff I've got the spare time for :)
I pick up a lot of cool stuff in Sweden (not only Amiga hardware) and I meet a lot of strange people and even rude pompous know it all types of people, but now and then I actually find someone who becomes a friend and that's great.
(bonding over retro hardware with a stranger can be really great since you know you have at least something in common)
I hid my age for several years online since people I met strangely did not respect me or take me seriously because of my age (I'm born in 1986 but grew up with older machines). In late 2012 I got contacted about my Amigas by a computer magazine for IT professionals. They wanted to make an article in the retro sections about my A1200 which I gladly accepted since I wanted more people to get back into Amiga. Tho I did not share the article for quite some time since I did not want to show people that I was a bit younger (they didn't write my age but the picture shows that I'm a bit younger), but about a year ago I went %&$#?@!%&$#?@!%&$#?@!%&$#?@! it, I know what I am capable off and I'm not letting anyone piss on me because of my age, and surprisingly most people didn't even mention it. A few guys have given me a hard time but I just don't care since I know what I am capable of and age is not that important, heck most of my real life retro friends are 10-30 years older then me, doesn't bother me or them which is great!
Also thanks a lot for posting you got me to write the above which felt kinda good to get out!
The ones that stopped talking to you are not worth your time anyways, their loss not yours! I hope you don't think everyone is like that!
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I'm very happy to see you've checked back in, Cammy - and I certainly hope you did not take peoples' concern for you as them being disrespectful or insensitive to whatever baggage you are dealing with IRL on a daily basis. No one here was speaking ill about you, or trying to air some form of "dirty laundry". There's no dirty laundry to air - you're a valued member and friend here on A.org, as well as other Amiga sites, and people were concerned about you and simply wondered if you hadn't given up on us Amigans as a whole, heh.
No one, including myself in what I said in the other thread - meant any harm.
You owe nothing to anyone but yourself, and you sure as heck don't owe anything to a bunch of guys that are merely associates online because you share a passion for the thing we call "Amiga". There are thousands of people left in this community, and many of them, including myself - don't make much of a "dent in the universe". You certainly have had a great impact in furthering the community and bridging gaps, and don't forget that - ever. Good people are hard to come by, Cammy - and you're good people.
What you owe yourself is happiness, and doing things in your spare time that you truly love. If there's anything anyone here can ever do for you, just ask. Take time for yourself to work out the things you need to, and for Heaven's sake, don't worry that you've ever owed the community here or anywhere else a darned thing. You take care of you, that's of the most utmost importance - and I'll be so bold as to speak for everyone here in saying:
"If you ever need anything, or just someone to talk to, you're among friends here."
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Cammy, I hope you feel better soon, best wishes always.